Week 36: Once in a Lifetime.

Blue Cicada Maternity Racheal Joseph Kwacz

I gasped a little as our app updated last night, our little poppyseed is so so so close to being full term and my heart, oh my heart.

The dr is working on her “cooking” for at least 2 more weeks and hopefully I will go into labor naturally without much intervention.

J and I are absolutely over the moon.

We are nervous, in awe, mesmerized, insanely terrified but mostly so so very excited to meet her.

To get to know her. To hold her. To love love love on her.

To think that just in a blink of an eye, 36 weeks have passed and here we are.

Magic.

We are so so so close it’s almost tangible and so very real as we continue finding the courage to let go, let God, and to embrace it all.

Blue Cicada Maternity Racheal Joseph Kwacz

Yesterday, as J tucked us in, he said “Goodnight mama and baby, daddy loves you

Oh, to be able to bottle up the magic of how precious it is to see the man you adore come into his own.

Our dear sweet little girl, mama and daddy can’t wait to meet you!

xoxo

p/s These beautiful photos were taken as part of a series ( –>MORE HERE!!<–) by the incredibly talented Caroline Cuinet-Wellings from Blue Cicada Photography for her heart exploding #oneyearatatime project.

We are forever grateful for her gift and talent of capturing this season of our once in a lifetime.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. 

Lost & Found.

Not Lost. | wander.kateFor a while there, I started going back to where it all started and writing more on my personal FB page.

Late night and mid-day soliloquies of the so big and the so little was so much easier in the life-on-happy-crack-busy-busy-busy to write but I started to miss this place.

I missed the draw of writing then rewriting again.

Of editing and re-editing, crafting and re-crafting, trying and trying again.

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mr & mrs.

We took a month break and traveled back to the country where we first met, the country we fell in love in, the country we learned to dream big dreams in and in that little city that we used to call home, I learned again and again the depth of the man I am privileged to call my husband.

So excited to share these photos and this story with you this morning.

xoxo

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Day 9-16: Celebrate! #100happydays

Love Heals #100happydays | wanderkateThis week held so much fun and happy that just putting together this post made my heart smile and mouth water all over again! 🙂

Yay #100happydays!

Day 9: 

We celebrated a special birthday boy with a yearly tradition of cake at midnight!

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Day 8: When God Makes Lemonade #100happydays

When God Makes Lemonade #100happydays | wander.kateI had a quiet Saturday to myself since the boys were working and the busy bee is planning a few surprises for a someone’s birthday that shall not be named. 😛

I didn’t use to love the quiet, in fact, I used to hate the alone. When you’ve spend a gazillion lonely nights waiting, you come to hate the dark and the deafening silence of empty.

I would sit with Cody by my side on the couch and read a book, or cook up a storm to store in the freezer, or bring home work just to be busy.

It was hard to be still with the thoughts and the gut wrenching knowing that this was not the life I imagined.

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